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ms thanna to xin ning : you're hair so little still want to tie. xin ning : it's a bun. cassandra to miss thanna : she thinks it's cool. she wants to be a fashion statement. ms thanna to cassandra : why don't you follow her? cassandra to miss thanna : i don't follow blindly. ms thanna : good answer. cassandra : (:
9:23 AM
Saturday, April 28, 2007
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so much has happened the past week, and so much am i only able to take in. i don;t know what's wrong with me; it's either im thinking tooo much; or im not even thinking at all.anyways; mye's are like in 2 days. oh god. i dont feel ready at alll. everytime i try to study; i fall asleep or i get distracted. i haven't been in the best of mood these few days. it's like im always gurmpy and i never want to talk to claudia in the morning; then during asembly i'm okay; in class it's all so fuck; then i'm happy at some random time; and then im back to being super pisssy. oh well.1)i hate your fucking obssesion. all you talk about is ______! WHAT THE.2)exmas can kill.3)i failed my 2.4; by a fucking 2o mins. pffffft.4)i hate the fucking dusty curtains in class. CHELSEA KOH; STOP PLAYING WITH THEM.5)I can never trust you again.6)fucking classmate.juli and evan came over to my house on friday; sopposingly sopposed to study, we ended up camwhoring. as in like serious cam-whorrring. like wow; i saw a side of juli i never saw. she cam-whores. so it was funn fuunnn fuunnn. i went to parkway today. i bougght this lovely necklace from diva. oh my; i better start svaing my money. i want my shades. oh no wait nevermind; at least evangeline's going to pay 15 dollar for it; as my birthday present. YESSSS. haha. but i still need to save. after the exams im going shoooping. 1) with juli and evan. 2) with joan. 3) with mummy on my hunt for dresses. i really need $$$. oh and not forgetting my trip to ikea with evan. and my trip to escape with the section.i was at coffee club for dinner just now. and i was wearing a pink tank top and a skirt; my gold hoops and the necklace from diva. then i had this convo with a random caucasion/amarican(?) stranger.*both of us waiting for the toilet*she: i like your styleme(shock): thanks. haha.she: how old are you?me: (thinking; my mind was blank) 13. (damn, im 14)she: wow, you look older. like 16 or something.me: haha. really?she: gold really goes well with your skin.me: oh, thanks.she: do you tan?me: not really.she: you really should.me: haha, oh thanks.she: i hope im not freaking you out.*i go into toilet* wow; she was like so random yet so friendly. it reminede me of the super friendly americans in hawaii. and there; i go again. I MISS HAWAAI BADD. hai. oh; i better go now. tomorrow; i better do last minute revisions. i dont know why but im kinda looking forward tomorrow. god. but i so can wait for monday to come. AH. if only we can stop time. i thought we had it together too.i wanted to gain back what i lost.so i went for it.i love you;i really do,but this dont seem to work.i dont see you;i dont even talk to you.i'm sorry.i am just not ready.no; it's not you.and no it;s not the rumours.I MISS YOU.i miss the fact that whenever i was bored;you are the first that come to my mind.I LOVE YOUmrs joel madden.
7:15 AM
Friday, April 27, 2007
OHHHHH MYYYY GAAAAAAAAAAAAAWWWWWWWW. SO EFFFING HOT. i tried to post; but i'm having a reaaaaaaly bad stomachache. ohhh man. i shall do this tomorrow. mrs joel madden
8:45 AM
Monday, April 23, 2007
TWO MONTHS AGO; I HAD SOMETHING TO LOOK FORWARD TO.ONE MONTH AGO; I WAS WITH DORALINE AND JULIANA IN THE PLANE.ONE MONTH AGO; EVERYTHING WAS SO GOOD IN HAWAII.ONE MONTH AGO; BAND WAS LOOOOOVE.A WEEK AFTER THAT ONE MONTH; EVERYTHING CHANGED.TWO DAYS AGO; IT WAS ANOTHER WASTE OF TIME.ONE DAY AGO; I FINALLY TOLD MYSELF I HAD TO STOP SLACKING.ONE HOUR AGO; I WAS PISSED.TWO DAYS FROM NOW; I'LL STILL BE THINKING ABOU HAWAII. mye's are fucking killing.i finally showed my mum my progress card.don't ask.
7:08 AM
Saturday, April 21, 2007
CLEARLY, I STILL MISS HAWAII!
i feel like deleting the previous emo-fied post. oh my gawddd. i had like no idea what i was thinking. so yes, and i really am not sad.oh wells, i shaall blog. the week has been okay. i had my 2.4, and i ran alot. which actually helped alot. i think and well, i hope. it's so funny cause just one year ago; we were nicely talking to eachother, and now we don't even acknoweldge eachother. oh whaat thhe fark. the past week has been okay. know me or not you probably already know. thanks to a very little yet big-mouthed frog. oh wells, fuck you. arh, wells. i lovveeeeee yoouuuuuuuu.the weather has been so hot. and my stupid classmates have like zero consideration cause they never open the windows. IT'S LIKE URG URG HOT.i haven't been able to really concentrate in class lately, god knows why. MYE is like one week from now. oh my god. and i still feel so slack. i need to concentrate, harder. i swear; i really need to. like urg. i went to parkway; and i got myself a science assement. haah. i need to study luhh.i bought timberlake's latest album; and i'm so pissed now. cause when i open the cover first time, it broke already. pffft. i shall go refund! i feel so broke now. i dont know if i still can get my topshop sunglasses which i really want which cost 33. oh mann. i need to save anyways, cause i reeally want to go shopping with juliana and evangeline to vivo. i want to go on a shooooping spree with them. so to be able to go out with them; i need to study really hard. somehow;everything still boils down to me having to pass with my mye with flying colours. i also plan to go out with my dearest daaarlings; weelyn&jolene&joey&jiawei&eda&kayler to ESCCAAAAAPEEEE. finally we can go to escpae; after waiting for god-knows how long. speaking of going out with them. i had lunch with my deaaarrss on friday. after the mrsloh's farewell, which i think was actually quite sad. we went TM, after finally deciding. we had long john's silver; after much thought. oh my. it was sopposed to be lunch; but i swear it felt more like TEA. and like i said we should have just eaten YAKUN, bread and kaya. how nice. but, no. they won't listen. HAHA. it's quite obvious; I HAD FUN. duhh, as usual. FUN FUN FUN. after all, saxophone section is LOVVEEE :)
8:08 AM
Friday, April 20, 2007
i didn't know if it was right.
and now you're gone and i am sad.
SIGH.
how come everything happens all on one day?
if only time could be turned back.
SIGH, i can't be bothered with anything else for now.you sit there thinking;if what you do is really right?they say good comes after bad.so maybe it's not for all.but life can't be that bad right?after all; those people claim they got your back.or rather they're just bullshit. it's all about being emo.
8:14 AM
Saturday, April 14, 2007
(my house phone just rang; i kinda reminded me of sascha's annoying vibrating alarm.pffffft)
school was a boreee. bleeeah. we went to macs since fall in was at 3.40pm. doraline was being hilarious. ssttttuupid man. haha. macs was well okay. it was raining so we had to run in the rain. i felt kinda sick on the bus back to school. half of me felt like puking, half of me felt like crying. dang, im geeting sooo emotional these days. fall in was quite sad, since it was like the last we were going to fall in together as a whole band. sigh, i was like super sad already. then we had the promotion ceremony. it was like super weird. then mrs chua said her thanks, and i started to tear. oh mann. i was probably the first junior to cry.
DAMN. i shall continue this another day. i feel so excitied now; getting the gooss out of weelyn.
see la thanks to her i can't continue my story.
8:46 AM
Thursday, April 12, 2007
see how united we are. i love you guys more than ever.
school was a bore.
our so called section meeting was A BLAST. took like picturreees :)
band started off kinda 0kay, no actually everything was kinda like screwed. cause like everrything was going kinda wrong. today was also the first band practise without the sec4's. we had sectionals on sunrise. wow. how nice.
i had fun with eda and joey. we caught joey in the act. super FUN-ness. i swear. arrhh, we were like laughing laughinh laughing. in the band room. what theee. haha. super hilarious la. but i shall NOT say what we were doing there. superr fun.
i must say this is like the first tim i really had fun since i came back from hawaii. school's been bloody shit. class been URGH. spc been farking urgh. cause i feel asleep again in her class. oh fuck her.
tommorow's the day. i dont know how to stop myself from feeling sad. the seniors are leaving tomorrow. i dont know how the band's going to be like. neither do i know how's the section going to be like. so it is going to be different. im going to miss them. seriously when i first got to know the section, never epected them to leave. i mean like weelyn and jo have been greatt. seriously, i am so friiging grateful for them. more than ever. weelyn have been like the most patient senior anyone can ever get; except she gets supeeer annoying. KIDDDING. jolene have been the most friiging encouraging senior i ever met. she's the pne who's always telling us we can do it. sigh, just nice when hawaii broughtus closer, and there they have to leave. OH MAN. i feel lke crying now. ive been getting pretty emmotional lately.
tution sucked; cause i dont like you anymore.
6:52 AM
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
1) i think im going to fail my effin 2.4
2) IM SO FREAKING PROUD OF MY SENIORS. i love them to bits. friday's the day for them. arh, im so sad. i think i am going to cry. sriously like yaaah.. im so going to miss all the sec4s. dang and weelyn and jolene and sherri. HAI HAI.
freak conversation during home ed.eat your hearts out, xin ning. ps; now you're trying to talk to meafter what you did,what do you think i should do?just ignore.i have my limits too.and things wil NEVER be the same.it felt so weird;being with you.
6:54 AM
Sunday, April 8, 2007
i was bored so i came up with:160 things cassie misses about the Hawaii trip.1) counting down the days to Hawaii
2) annoying and making ezzah gunita and Claudia jealous whenever we talk about Hawaii.
3) asking evan and juli what the bringing. etc.
4) miss the feeling I had the day before Hawaii.
5) counting down the hours.
6) packing my bag.
7) locking my luggage.
8) taking the taxi to airport in the wee hours of the morning. or night. whatever.
9) having the feeling of going overseas without my family.
10) queuing up at immigration in S’pore airport.
11) carrying my own luggage.
12) checking my own luggage.
13) the moment I said bye to my mom.
14) eating polar café with weelyn and feeling oh-so-nervous.
15) changing places in the plane.
16) sitting with juli in the plane.
17) cam-whoring in the plane with juli.
18) having juli sleep on my shouler.
19) sleeping on juli’s shoulder.
20) having juli so paranoid when landing and taking off.
21) when juli thought that jet-lag was leg numbness.
22) Japan’s lovely airport
23) Japan’s LOVE-LY toilet bowls.
24) Claire’s
25) spening god-knows how long in claire’s.
26) having jo, weelyn and sherri asking me if the clutch is a want or a need.
27) pestering the three of them if I should get the clutch.
28) UNAGI RICE.
29) sitting beside doraline.
30) night turning to sun.
31) filling up my own immigration form.
32) airplane food, okay I don’t miss it.
33) waking to the toilet with juli.
34) the stupid flushing system in the airplane.
35) juli freaking out about the flushing system
36) feeling so proud cause I didn’t feel sick in the plane.
37) boasting about the fact that I didn’t feel sick.
38) wondering if I actually slept on the plane to Hawaii.
39) feeling super tired when reached Hawaii.
40) getting a kissed by a guy. oh, how aloha-ish.
41) feeling so relieved to be on the grounds of Hawaii. finally.42) talking to Evangeline from balcony to balcony.
43) calling juli. but always forgetting her number.44) having my first mac meal with weelyn.45) wanting a shower so badly.
46) “choping” to use the toilet first.
47) seeing all the ABC stores at every coner of the road.
48) the really cute traffic light.
49) the traffic light that is so confusing.
50) the zebra crossing that makes me feel I’m jay-walking.
51) the really beauty-fulll beach.
52) the super carefree Americans.
53) the super friendly Americans.
54) cursing all the super unfriendly Singaporeans.
55) comparing the Singaporeans to Americans.
56) comparing the feeling when entering a store in America and in Singapore.
57) the super super nice wind.
58) the weather.
59) wearing a jacket.
60) feeling all the “tremors”61) feeling when I finally get to have a shower.
62) feeling when I finally get to sleep.
63) having jo ,weelyn and sascha as my room mates.
64) BLACK MAGIC.
65) the look of happiness on jo, weelyn and sherri’s faces when they know I don’t the secret to black magic.
66) the look of saddness on jo, weelyn and sherri’s faces when I finally figured black magic.
67) waking up 15 mins before the time we are sopposed to meet.
68) freaking out because we’re late.
69) seeing Jo’s super messy hair every morning.
70) having sashca freak out when she realize she has not brushed her teeth.
71) Having breakfast at Perry's Smorgy
72) eating the same food every morning.
73) seeing jo sherri and weelyn so stone every morning.
74) study time.
75) talking to joan in her room.
76) seeing weelyn and sherri sleep so comfortably.
77) teasing them with jo.
78) hearing weelyn hum to her song.
79) having weelyn shit in the toilet, super stink.
80) smelling the super stinky deodarant after someone shits.
81) having sherri coming in to trash my room.
82) having evangeline’s room just beside mine.
83) talking to Evangeline from balcony to balcony.
84) calling juli. but always forgetting her number.85) forgetting my own room number.
86) PRANK CALLING.
87) Waikiki beach.
88) the gorgeous sunset.
89) the food pantry.
90) microwave food.
91) sascha’s annoying vibrating alarm.
92) the stupid alarm which everyone ignores.
93) talking to my room mates before I sleep.
94) weelyn sleep talking.
95) laughing.
96) laughing my different laughters.
97) teasing weelyn about casper.
98) having our room so messed up.
99) cleaning our room. finally.
100) walking god-knows-how many blocks from our hotel to pacific beach hotel with our instruments.
101) blisters on my hands from carrying my case.
102) wearing our band-u.
103) wearing my black “court” shoes.
104) freaking out about my wrong “court” shoes.
105) being so emotional before adjucation.
106) all the support from my dear seniors.
107) weelyn and Jolene and Sherri and Joan being there for me.
108) when adjucation was finally over.
109) the feeling of relief when I came in on time for renegade.
110) when we stood up and cheered for the seniors.111) the workshop with steven Williams.
112) the combine rehersal with west-rench.
113) male alto saxophonist from west-rench.
114) cute guuyssss :)
115) ala mona116) speed shooping with section and adopted section member, sherri.
117) spending all I want.
118) being broke. okay, that’s no good.
119) feeling so happy to shop without being stopped.
120) billabong, roxy, ripcurl.121) m&m cookie.
122) international market.
123) and the stupid guy who cheated our money.
124) all the cute pukka shells, if only I had the money.
125) all the cheap cheap stuff.
126) the stupid factory shop, sunpac. blahh.127) pearl harbour.
128) and it’s history.
129) photos.
130) preety rainbows.131) being too tired to eat dinner.
132) the dinner&dance.
133) sitting with sherri.
134) meeting new people.
135) forcing myself to eat the freaking salad.
136) table manners.
137) dying from boredom there.
138) jumping around on the dance floor with evan and joan.
139) for once feel so proud being a Singaporean.
140) pushing evan and joan around to the cute guys.
141) go through all the crowd in between cute guys.
142) the laua.
143) the scorching sun.
144) my legs burning from my stupid black shoes.
145) ABC stores.
146) command performance.
147) the time when they announced we had silver.
148) packing my luggage on the last night.
149) the sadness I felt when we were coming back.
150) sitting with juli and dora on the plane back.
151) eating macs at japan airport.
152) going into claire’s feeling tempted.
153) feeling sad cause I can’t buy stuff at japan airport.
154) feeling the sense of pride when they announce about us on the plane.
155) feel so proud to be an sac-ian when the congragulate us.
156) going to school in the wee hours to pack our instrument.
157) weelyn
158) Jolene
159) sherri
160) when the band surprised me with the cake.
FARK. I MISS EVERY DAMN THING ABOUT HAWAII.
6:44 AM
Saturday, April 7, 2007
i miss hawaii.
today's saturday. or rather sunday. whatever.
i can't believe it. i slept in SPC's class. like wow. i actually slept. i slept for like 15 minutes. and when i woke i found her talking about babies. chap6;sex! thank god i woke up, or i swear i would have fallen into a deep deep sleep.
i still miss hawaii. i just came from the airport cause we went there for ice-creeam. heart-pain man. i miss hawaii so so much. i can't believe it. it's over. gone. no more coounting down. it felt like a dream when we reached hawaii. now, it feels like another dream that we're back. arh. i cannot concentrate on my work. hawaii hawaii hawaii. today on the way home from the airport, in the car. i was like telling my mum that if she were to leave me in the airport i'll take a flight straight to hawaii. no wait, i think i'll stop at japan first to vist CLAIRE'S. i might stop over at aussie. then maybe to california too. HA. then finally to HAWAIIIII.
syf for the seniors are like on monday. good luck man. gosh, i got my fingers croosed for them. arrrh. sec4s are going to grad soon too. i can't believe it. they are going to go. NOO. come on, this got to be another dream. siggggh siggggh, im so gonna miss them.
notthing much interesting have been going on with my life.
a week ago i just came home from hawaii.
two weeks ago i was having the time of my life in hawaii.
one week from now 2.4 fark.
three weeks from now MYE. oh goooossssshhh.
i might consider taking my tagboard out. it;s like sooo dead.
9:29 AM
Wednesday, April 4, 2007
everyone's still talking about hawaii still. like i swear before we left hawaii, the thing we talked about during recess was about hawaii, now again, it's stil about hawaii. ezzah and gunita are like so annoyed.
i really do miss hawaii. like one week ago excatly, we were still sleeping and in a few hours we'll be going to the luau. (?) arrh, i miss hawaii. shiiit, i want to go back.
urrrgh.
i swear there's sth wrong with me. i told evan that i'm over ___.
and the reason to it: i finnally know what's cute after seeing the epping boys.
gosh, and she was like are u being sarcastic?
the weather is farking hot here in singapore. and some stupiiid peopl just wont seem to want to open the doors and windoors. it's like so farking stuffy.
everything back home here is a bore. im so freaking tired i got a hell load of homework i have not done. and i dont know when and how im going to do it. i keep following asleep while doing my homework in the afternoon. there's no band for the whole week, and im sopposed to go catch up on all my homeworrk. i kinda miss band. i just realised that we probably wont be going cca till like after mid-year. oh how sad. and even worst cause sec4s are going to grad soon.arh. and as weelyn said we're probably like never going to play together again. hai, so i guessed the lastw e played together was in the marlin room in dearrr hawaii. hai. how sad :(
7:15 AM
Monday, April 2, 2007
what made it fun was when my dearest dearest section surprised me with a present. winnie the pooh. :) i looooove. survey,eh eda? thank you guys so freaking much. i love you all.
weelyn mentioned it today; ONE MORE WEEK TILL THE SENIORS GRAD. ARHHH. what the fuck. tsk tsk tsk. sigh :((((((((((((((((((((((( sad sad sad.
oh damn, ive got a hell load to catch up on school work. i better start working super hard, or i'll just die. dang,CASSIE WAKE UP.
i went for the pc council interview. mrs tan chose me, oh wells. i dont mind anyways. it was like super scary laaah. gosh, and jo was there. so it was even more scary.
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oh and i have just remember another thing that i miss about the trip to hawaii.
I MISS PLAYING BLACK MAGIC WITH SHERRI, WEELYN AND JOLENE.
I MISS THE FEELING OF FINALLY KNOWING THE SECRET TO THE GAME.
I MISS THE SAD LOOKS ON THEIR FACES WHEN THEY FOUND OUT THAT I ALREADY KNOW THE SECRET.
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH. anyways, those three people are super selfish. so beware.
7:22 AM